New Beginnings

I have been thinking about writing a blog for awhile now.  It has been a long year for me, last year on September 6, 2010 I lost my best friend.  Not only was he my best friend he was my brother. While I have been going through this grief process if that's what you want to call it.  I feel more like I'm having a nervous breakdown or I'm losing my mind.  It's not that I haven't experienced death before, this is the second sibling I lost.  My other brother passed away 12 years ago I'll talk about that at another time.  This time it's different because my played so many different roles in my life he was a father, protector, and partner.  I have been on a emotional roller coaster this year, I have been giving many different suggestions on how to deal with this from going to talk with someone, join a support group, go to church, or write about it which came up a lot.  I have tried all of them except for writing cause that is not my strong point.  The other ones are helping a little but I still need something else, so I am going to give writing a try.  I do not proclaim to be a great writer so my grammer and puncation are not going to always be right but it will get better (I hope).  I will be writing about my journey it may help someone else.